whitequark

whitequark , vor 2 Monaten an Random Englisch

girl who uses "asexual" in exactly the same way and meaning as "agender"; to mean that traditional notions of sexuality do not apply, and the spectrum you might be imagining is irrelevant

whitequark OP , vor 2 Monaten

it took me close to a decade to realize that not only i can do this but i also want to

whitequark OP , vor 2 Monaten

@munin i have compared this exact thing to linux before. i am so relieved to discover i'm not the only one to have these brainworms

whitequark OP , vor 2 Monaten

@munin but yeah i ended up on

• yes, i'm asexual
• no, i don't hate sexuality
• it serves a perfectly clear and reliable instrmental purpose for me that doesn't match what people assume. yes, you have to read the proverbial manual

whitequark , vor 2 Monaten an Random Englisch

gender

whitequark OP , vor 2 Monaten

@foone i want a t-shirt with "FRONT / TOWARDS ENEMY" lettering over my tits but the only options i can find are khaki unisex which wouldn't even fit, and furthermore i don't like the vibe

not sure how to modify it though

18+ whitequark , vor 2 Monaten an Random Englisch

i don't think i know anybody who is joyful about it

• i know people who got it and are bitter or burned out about the result
• i know people who cannot get it and are bitter or burned out about that
• i know people who got it for the sole reason of not feeling worse (rather than feeling better)

why even bother with the effort and money lol

18+ whitequark OP , vor 2 Monaten

it really doesn't help that i feel roughly the same about hrt, after that one time i got drugged with mdma and then injected with estradiol without consent

18+ whitequark OP , vor 2 Monaten

@munin i think she did it so that she'd have an easier time raping me? she did something similar (not literally the same actions but same general idea) to someone else

18+ whitequark OP , vor 2 Monaten

@munin i spent a year with no hrt at all after orchi and to this day it feels better to exist that way

the main reason we still use estradiol (injectables, too) is to reduce fatigue (primary) and prevent bone density loss (secondary)

it does not bring me joy, i don't really like the mental state it puts me in, and (unsurprisingly) i do not really enjoy any sort of sexuality while on it, vs. with no sex hormones at all

18+ whitequark OP , vor 2 Monaten

@foone @munin fucker