I would also like to note because my other reply ran out of space, I wouldn't consider myself an anti-communist, but rather pro-democracy.
There's plenty of communists, even leninists, that I look up to for inspiration, people and movements such as Allende, Sankhara, Che, Hu Yaobang, and the French and Italian communist parties being some examples, and I don't think the actions of Lenin or even Stalin are universally bad, just that their authoritarian actions allowed for abuses that never should've happened in the name of socialism, and that there's also plenty of inspiration in non-Leninist democratic socialists such as Goldman, Luxemburg, Haywood, Bevan, and Meidner.